So here we are. I just turned 30 in November. My daughter will be 5 in May. I have a beautiful colorful life. I love to sing dance and create. I took up cooking when I was pregnant with my daughter. When I started to get comfy with cooking, I got the courage to bake. Then I was really excited! My house was filled with the amazing smells and warmth of rolls, cookies, and sweet treats. When I was pregnant with my daughter all I wanted was sugar. Now, that's all she wants. Figures!! She gave me the drive to want to bake. What a blessing. She has always been obsessed with marshmallows. So an idea came to me to make homemade marshmallows. That's when Sugar Sugar Coconut was born. It's been a whirlwind, but I have a tight grip on the wheel and I am enjoying the ride!! Feeling the fire and excitement that finding your purpose and niche brings. So follow me on this journey. It's gonna be sticky, sweet, and delicious. So I hope you saved room for dessert!
So excited! I am getting all my ducks in a row and preparing to send off for my first column in a magazine! I will be doing at home sweets and treats for readers. This is gonna be fun. I get to unleash my creative side!! It's for the Halloween issue, so it's cockroach nests!! Promise they are yummy..no real nests or cockroaches. I have to make the treats with a recipe, photo's and step by step. Wow, I am so loving it!! Well back to creating and drooling over my recipe, these lil treats are super delish....
So here we go again. It's been months. I feel so out of the loop. I am going to say it. I almost feel like I have somewhat failed. The boulders that have been put in my path have really put a hitch in my get a long. Sometimes, life doesn't work out the way we planned it to say the least. I thought the path that I was on was gonna keep that steady course forever. Boy was I mistaken. So now, I am uprooting my life, starting over. Every aspect and dynamic is changing. I have wanted to give up, for the first time. I have felt afraid and alone. What am I doing? Who am I kidding? What was I thinking!!?? I recently was reflecting on all of my adventures in this business. I had come so far to turn back. How could I give up now? I am not a quitter!
I was in LA looking for a new place to live. Oh, by the way, I am moving. I am so excited, nervous, and ready. I received a call. Someone that I had spoken to about my product. He works for a high profile television show and we had agreed that I needed to get my product to his producers asap! After all that had been going on, we had fallen out of contact, he had been busy editing the finale of his three shows, and well I had been sorting out the major details, or life of mine these days. So that was amazing. Also great timing, considering my state of humdrum these days. Eeyore attitude was getting old anyway. Also my creative, amazing, multi-talented darker male version of Martha Stewart friend had informed me that he had started a magazine and offered me a page in it! How to make treats at home for his Halloween Issue. So, the logs are being put back into the fire. I just need a serious blast to my mo jo. So I'm doing it. Chugging and plugging along. I know it gets tough, and nothing worth having is easy. All I keep thinking, is gosh my life would make a great book someday. Next on my list of to do's, cause seriously people, you have no idea. Sweets and treats and only good eats! Until next time, may the break not be so long until we meet again.....
I can't even express what it feels like to me right now. Kind of like being trapped inside a box that is too small for your body, with enough opening to let your arm out. The key is right there. The key that unlocks the box and lets me out. It's within my grasp I just have to stretch a little further and I can get out of the box. So I guess I kind of expressed what I am feeling right now. At a still. I won't say stand still, because we are never standing still. We are constantly moving, even if it's just the breath in our lungs, the heart beating in our chest. In motion. Complacency is my pet peeve. I can't regress, neither can I stand still. Sometime's obstacle's are put in our path. I am a firm believer that there are no such things as coincidences. Things happen when and where they happen for a reason. In there time, space and place. I haven't really had much to write about lately. Or really on the contrary I have had a lot to write about, just not appropriately so to be included in my blog life. My business is still alive, just due to some, shall we say, technical difficulties, paused. Last night, I met some important people. They were investors. They have invested in Billion, Million dollar businesses. I unfolded my idea, my plan, my marketing approach. They loved it. They believed in it. They gave me some ideas, direction and I was stunned. I have been so blessed to have come across some of the most amazing people in the business world. Say what you want the universe has sent it to me, it's divine, it's a gift. Whatever your belief in whatever you believe I have been inspired and have continued to receive gifts from a greater source of inspiration. So again, I am grateful. For this flickering light bulb moment. For the pause the universe sent me for whatever reason, so that I might receive the knowledge I received yesterday. I have been redirected, yet again, as I am sure in this yummy adventure I will be many more times. Refining the process like sugar. That's what makes a great marshmallow, that's what makes a great business. So my "so called" frustration, has turned into a realization once again, that everything happens for a reason.
So....now that it's official. I am relocating. So how do we do this? I am here there and everywhere, yet still focused. Today is the day I will recognize that I have layed down the foundation, nothing left to do but build up and out. Expand and keep on expanding. I am so blessed to have gained this vision, to have this love. My marshmallow adventure has only just begun.
Ok, so I have basically fallen off the planet, blog speaking. No I have not thrown in the oars. I am still paddling away. Life presents it's fair share of unexpected twists and turns. Now, I am well aware that it is not appropriate to share a laundry list of indiscretions or debacles. You really don't want to know. I will tell you this much. People first, business second. This is my life, sure. I started this business, amazingly with a clear vision. I knew what I wanted. I saw it, and I went for it. Unfortunately, my personal life, has not had such a clear path. I guess sometimes when we love, we love blindly. I have ended my relationship with someone to whom I thought I would be with forever. I won't go into depth or any story, you can buy the book, to be published at a later date. I loved him, he loved me. We have a beautiful daughter, and wonderful memories. However, it is at this point in our lives we must sever the ties and move forward. I am happy and know it was the right thing to do. I can now resume to do what I know is my destiny, bring my sweet treats to the world! This business is for more than myself, I wanted to show my daughter to chase her dreams. That anything is possible when you put your mind to it. I envision her someday telling the story of how this average stay at home mom, had a vision and went for it. That she will inherit my dream, that it will blossom into something far greater than I can ever imagine. I did it for me, but mostly I did it for her. So here I go again on my own, no more distractions. It's time to make it happen. Nothings gonna stop me. Nothing.
I sold out at the Ace! I can't believe it....on the way and tears of joy are streaming. I'm dreaming with my eyes wide open. I'm humble grateful, appreciative. Thanks to the staff at the Ace. Craig, you took a chance and I can't thank you enough. Starbucks, I owe you. Nights awake without you would have nver been possible. Santa barbara olive oil and whole milk, you nourished my body when I had no time to eat. JCM, every song helped motivate me and opened my creativity taking Sugar Sugar Coconut to the next level MWahhaaahaa! Life is sweet.
Edge of desire. One of my favorite songs. Irrellivant that its completley unrelated to food but none the less it motivates me just the same. These days ny view from the kitchen has changed. My surroundings are different. Quite frankly, my life has been completley turned upside down. But I still have my marshmallows! It's ironic. When I started this journey, I was sobbing on my floor, lost, directionless. I had something inside me. But what? I asked for direction. I was given this gift. The journey began. I wasn't scared for the first time in my life I lept into a world unknown fearless ready to take on the world. I knew I could do it. It was my time. Things happened without rhyme or reason. It still gives me chills. I'm in a different place now, not sure of things in my personal circumstances, but in a strong certainty that Sugar Sugar Coconut is on the path exactly where I want it to go. Carving its way like water does through rocks, slowly but surely opening a path to a great and endless wide open. So as I stare in to a mixing bowl full of marshmallow fluff, it still gets to me. I tear up, get on my knees and just give thanks. Thanks for feeling complete. For being able to see the joy in others, to share my story and to do what I love and love what I do. I can truley say I feel as full as a the river after the warm spring rain. My cup runs over. I'm blessed and every day gets better. It still applies...pinch me.
Angels among me. So many people I am grateful for in my journey. I want to thank all of those who have taken a chance on my dream. Who have read this blog, tasted my treats, listened to my story, and loved me through the sleepless nights and excitement and tearfilled joy and bittersweetness that is Sugar Sugar Coconut.....MWWAAAHH!!
When you start thinking, summer means ice cream. It means, I can convert marshmallows into ice cream flavors, butter pecan, pecans and pralaines, rocky road, vanilla bean.....is it too early for ice cream at six am?